Ever hear all the things you wanted someone to say but said too late?
When I wanted and needed to hear that I mattered all I got was condescension. When I begged for help and support I was given excuses and left to struggle alone. When I was craving adventures and new experiences I got lethargy and demotivational arguments. When I needed to have intellectual conversations I got insecure rants.
Now I’m being promised the world. Except, it’s by the wrong person.
I’ll take care of you, we’ll go on adventures, I’ll join you in your hobbies, you’ll feel loved and appreciated every day…promises, promises.
I can’t even say, “if only I believed him” because at this point all the honeyed words fall on deaf ears and a closed heart. I never thought I could look at someone and feel so detached as they cried out their pain in front of me. I didn’t realize just how badly he’d damaged me until he promised me everything I ever wanted and it didn’t even spark a second of consideration.